I Am Nothing But Emotion, No Human Being, No Son, Never Again Son
CD/LP, Blue Soldier Records/Pocket Records/Pastel Music/Love Da Records/Gold Typhoon Music, 2010
01.Blue Soldier Night
You lay your head into my lap
I strike your face
The taxi rushes through the night
I’m endlessly far away
Blue soldier moment
Oh sweet, grown-up woman
We’re hovering, gliding in the opposite of home
It is stickily-white, like heroin, thick, and it carries death in itself
Don’t worry, I will not try to sleep with you, I say
Staggering through your Kafkaesque dungeon
One thousand rooms
Losing myself there in your multiplicity and being blissful
Time is stretching toughly like plasticine
It is dark around me
I finally find your bed
Am I torturing you, darling? you ask
We pass away
I’m holding your black curly head in my arms
Breathing heavily and deeply
My heart is running
Oh night, oh grown-up woman, oh heroin
Sticky-white death
I’m choking, craning my neck into the heavy night air
Oh Yoon, your hair, bristly and smoky
I’m inhaling your smell
Our bodies full of sebum
Our lungs blackened
Death is lying in wait
But heaven is where hell is
The hell of decompensation pukes emotion
Pure emotion
Only emotion
Eternal emotion
I am nothing but emotion, no human being, no son, never again son
Only art, purity
Yoon, heroine, the detour has washed me to your shore
Where are you now?
I’m lying here in your arms, in the Glaslights of your brothel
Oh, lock me up in your grown-up heart
02.Holy Dungeon
Here on my own again
Longing for things I can’t have
Death is lying in wait
And somewhere I’m hiding your scent
It’s dark, yet the night is gone
It’s cold, yet the ice has melted down
Your blackened lung, your weakened tongue, I swear that I have seen them
Oh, lock me up in your grown-up heart
Here we go again
It’s been so long since I’ve lost you
It’s been so long since I’ve kissed you
So play my music on your radio
Play your sorrow away
Lying here in your arms
Eating all of your sins
I wonder if I’ll ever be
The child that I used to be
Your blackened lung, your weakened tongue, your weary eyes, your secret lies
Your one-way street, your whitened sheet, your gloomy thoughts, your cranky gods
Your angel sighs, your painful highs, your tortured heart, your backward art
Your twisted ways, your ancient face, your perfumed words, your crying birds
And here we go again
Holy dungeon, filled with angels
I belong here in your Glaslights
Where are you now?
Holding on
I belong here and always will
I belong here and I always will
03.The Greatest Love of All
I belong where the sun shines
I belong in your heart
I belong in your sorrow
With the greatest love I’ve ever known
Let me walk down the alley
Let me walk down in your tear
I will fly like an angel
With the greatest love I’ve ever known
In the flooring answers I believe in your headroom
I believe there’s someone out
I believe in you
I will love in the flower
I will love you for good
I will fly like an angel
With the greatest love I’ve ever known
I believe in this alley
That will take me to you
I believe in the sunlight
With the greatest love I’ve ever known
In the flooring answers
Hold me close in your headroom
I belong where the flowers grow
I belong with you
I belong where the sun shines
I belong in your heart
I belong in your sorrow
With the greatest love I’ve ever known
With the greatest love of all
04.Open Arms of Gold
Leave me in my open arms of gold
Wondering what I have been told
Leave me in my open arms of gold, anymore
Leave me in my open arms of gold, inside
05.Nana
You’ve got the answers
And you hold the flowers
But don’t lead me on tonight
Don’t you worry, girl
And you know the answers
And you’ve got the flowers
But don’t lead me on tonight
Cause I belong there alone
So don’t lead me in your golden eye
It’s only waiting in sorrow
And all I cane here is longing
This answer
I see your light
And you hold the answer
And you hold the sound that I know
And you’ve got the answer
And you’ve got the sound that I know
But don’t lead me on tonight
Don’t you lead me on
And you’ve got the flowers
And you’ve got the sound that I know
And you hold the answers
And you hold the sound that I know
But don’t lead me on tonight
Don’t you lead me on
I don’t know where the flowers grow
And I belong there anyway
It’s all the way kings inside your eye
Leave the flower
Tonight I’ll be fine
Nana (live-/»piano version«)
You’ve got the answers
You hold the flowers
Don't lead me on tonight
Don't lead me on
You take my money
You say you love me
Don't lead me in your golden eye
I belong there anyway
And all I came for is shaking off this longing
This desire
You've got the answers
You've got the scent that I know
And you hold the flowers
And you hold the dreams that I've lost
You take my money
And you take my hand in the dark
And you say you love me
And you know that I will believe
06.Court My Eyes Alone
Every day I wake with the sunlight in my eyes
Every day I wake with a lonesome heart to cry
Until you call me
Until you wake me up
Until you wonder to court my eyes alone
Until you wonder to court my eyes alone
But don’t you leave me
And don’t deceive me
I’m coming out to call and doubt my way
Don’t you leave me
Don’t deceive me
I’m coming out my way
07.Glaslights
I belong there in your Glaslights
I’ll be strong there in you
I belong there in your Glaslights
I’ll be strong there with you
I was a soldier in the Glaslights
You were my lover too soon
And the night goes on to see for you
There were angels in the Glaslights
Yes, it’s true
There were angels in your Glaslights
There was silence in my heart
08.Messed-up Girl ballad version
Where have you been, my messed-up girl?
Staying up all night and losing our pearl
Why are you lying?
Why are you sighing, my love?
There’s this light in your eyes
Your cheeks are all red
It’s hard for you to hide that you betrayed me in his bed
But still you don’t leave me
Still you don’t leave, oh my love
What keeps you from running into his arms?
What keeps you from falling prey to his charms?
Is it your love?
Oh, do you still love me, my dear?
Well, I can’t be your sun
But I’ll be your moon
Brightening your night but fading too soon
Brightening your path with my borrowed light, oh my love
You’re my pale-faced princess
Silver lining
Noble sweetness
Always shining
How can you do this?
Oh, how can you do this to me?
So where have you been, my messed-up girl?
Staying up all night and losing our pearl
Why are you lying?
Why are you sighing, my love?
Oh, my love
09.No One’s Child
Don’t be shy ’cause it’s alright
I belong where no one else can grow my heart into my sorrow
I belong in you
But you are no one’s child
I’m alright with you, my love
Where the sun will grow into my arms
And I will go into my sunrise
And you are no one’s child
I believe to be free
I will go my way
Sunshine flows
And winter grows
You, my love, will find your way
I believe in no one else, knowing I’ll be somewhere else
You and I
Cause you are no one’s child
Summer grows to my arms
I believe in you
Sunshine flows
Moonlight grows
10.Your Kingdom
I belong there in your kingdom
Fallen long time ago
I’ll be strong there in your kingdom
Frozen under deep snow
No more heartache in your kingdom
No more houses to stay
I’ll be fine there in your kingdom
Time has carried away
I will lose my brains on the way to you
I’ll be shaking off my limbs to make it through
I belong there in your kingdom
Leaving no soul behind
I’ll be strong there in your kingdom
That is nowhere to find
11.You’ll Come Home Again
Leave my heart into your sorrow
Where to go and where to follow
I belong there
Where to know is »When«
So my love, I’ll leave you down thereunder
To my heart and to my sorrow
Where the angels fly
That I will never know
And you’ll come home again
You’ll come home again
You’ll come home again
So the silence of my heart of golden
Where to go and where to follow
I belong there
Oh, forever you
So the silence of my heart is endless
To my heart and to my sorrow
Leave the angels, fly!
And you will lose my mind
12.Grandiosity
Lingering thoughts in this drowning world
People are dead
That’s where I’ll be
My friends are all gone in this drowning world
All of them are dead
And this is my way, this is my way to leave you
This is my way, this is my way to leave
Lingering thoughts in this drowning world
People are old
That’s where I’ll be
My friends are all gone in this drowning world
All of them are sad
And this is my way, this is my way to leave you
This is my way
This is my way to find out all these ways of glory
And all my little ways
I’m sorry
There is no life, there is no life alone
All my little ways of glory
And all my little ways
I’m sorry
There is no life, there is no life alone
13.Lonely in Gold
Lonely in gold
Cause I saw your soul
And I don’t need the way you touched my heart
And you’ll come home again
You’ll come home again
You’ll come home again underneath the stars
And now you’re here with me, eventually
And now the time has come