Wretched Love Songs

01.My Wretched Love

I turn away from all the ones who hold on for dear life
And my fear of love suddenly rises as a cloudy trace of fiendish sorrow
That makes me run just to survive

I single out the ones who’ll never hold me in their hearts
And then I will lie under the spell of their resounding glory and raving stories
Of how they need to stay apart

Time will ease the strain to wander
And time will heal my wretched love
And I will leave the way to wonder why you’re inside me, my wretched love

I’lll seek for all the ones who’ll try to deal with all my faults
And my need of love suddenly rears its head and drowns my spirit, forces my hand
And sends me out into the cold

And time will ease the strain to wander
And time will heal my wretched love
And I will leave the way to understanding loneliness, my wretched love

02.My Wretched Love II

With you, my ailing love
I wonder where you come from
Why you’re holding out for nothing
Why you turn up in the dark
And why you’re craving for the ache

With you, my ailing love
You raise me with a glance
Return my value
Let me drown down in the sea of your black hair
Oh while I’ve grown a scream for care

I’m trying to understand my wretched love
I’m trying to hear your silent words
And I will go under while you’re here, my wretched love
And need you all the same so bad, my wretched love

With you, my ailing love
I hear you crying so much so that I can’t understand a single word you’re trying to say
Or what the hell you’re looking for

Oh you, my ailing love
You’re crying for eternity
You’re longing for the soundness
And my heart will never cast you off
I hope it never will

And someday I will leave your sphere
God knows when and god knows where
And someday I will go and leave
Your shelter
Your shelter
Your shelter

03.The Beauty of My World

Long ago I tried so hard to lose you and to be with you
All at the same time
Touching you and still staying afar

And lately you have tried so hard to soothe and to caress me
Oh while all I dreamed of was to hide away, yet to be found

And someday I will trail my spirit’s voice
And hold on to what it says
And maybe I will be astounded by the beauty of my world

And nowadays I only seem to find my peace in piles of shards of failed attempts to love
And failed attempts to take my life

04.Paradise on Earth

Walking on these alleys, these scenes of rise and fall
Haunted by the spirits of my past
And how could I not be mislead and reckon that this town used to be a paradise on earth

I hold my head up to the sky
I hide away just to get by, my love
And I know what lies ahead, my love
And I know that I will try to love you
Against the odds
Against the law
Oh and against the rocks
And someday I will make it up to you just by depriving you of all my love

I am lying in stupor
Stretched out on the floor
Staring at the ceiling
While the world is going up in smoke, my love, is dwindling all around me
And I’m thinking: »If I don’t come clean, I’ll die.«

So tell me everything that you have learned of love
And tell me everything that you have learned of hate
And tell me everything that you have learned about the skill to reconcile yourself to life

05.Into the Ocean

Tell me, everyone, where the rain will find me
And where you’re gonna wait for me and my love will hide tomorrow
And how much longer you will, will arrest my heart

And one day I will walk into the ocean
Taking all the broken hopes and your screaming silence with me
Oh how much longer will you occupy my heart?

So let down rain on me
Let down rain on me
Let down rain on me

I’m a helpless child, a retarded orphan
I’m floating in the sea of your pandemonium of sorrow
Oh tell me, how much longer will you own my heart?

And one day I will leave to sail the ocean
Throwing overboard all hopes and my ailing love and myself
Oh tell me, how much longer will you hold my heart?

06.Sea of Silence (part I)

Tell me where your secret lies
Your heartache hides
Your lullabies
And you’re stumbling
You’re prone to fall
You’re running out against the wall, my love

Hand in hand with you, my love
I held your cheeks between my palms
And your tender angel’s sleep
The glint that shone onto your baby skin

I lose my faith in our downfall and the size of our hearts
And I’ll seek for heavy rainfalls to whitewash our souls
To whitewash our souls

Tell me where your secret lies
Your heartache hides
Your lullabies
And you’re stumbling
You’re prone to fall
You’re running out against the wall
You’re sighing for the sea of silence, love

07.Xanax Child

Tell me where you’re headed to
And tell me where you go instead of under my skin
Embrace me now for your heart ain’t true
And leave me now before I start loving your sins

I hold my head up to the sky
I hide away just to get by

And I am not afraid to be drying out
For the rain is pouring down in my heart
And I don’t care at all for the rainy days
And I’ll be losing everything
When I’ll be falling for your understated, falling for your understated fraud

Where are you now, my Xanax child?
Where do you hide the cure instead of under your skin?
And someday I’ll be reconciled to staying all alone and to loving your sins

I hold my head down to the ground
I lose my way just to be found

08.Sea of Silence (part II)

Tell me where your secret lies
Your heartache hides
Your lullabies

You’re stumbling
You’re prone to fall
You’re running out against the wall

So tell me where your love will grow and tell me where you’re arising

Hand in hand with you, my love
I held your cheeks between my palms

Your tender angel’s sleep
The glint that shone onto your baby skin

So tell me where the river flows into the sea of silence

So tell me where your secret lies
Your heartache hides
Your lullabies

09.My Own Cinderella

I don’t wanna waste your time like this
But I wandered around in a store
And quietly their radio played this country song that held the line »my own Cinderella«
And I remembered my feelings for you

But time will go on and time will fly
And I will grow on you, love

And somehow I believe that you’re trying to say to me
»Oh I don’t wanna leave you alone!«
Oh how I wish that you raised your voice
Oh I need to trust the love that you hold for me
Cause if I lost my faith I would waste away like that two year old child that I was

10.My Wretched Love III

Time will heal my wretched love and the ways I’m going blind
And time will let me down

So hold me in your heart of gold even though I feel the ache
And cannot help but break with you

I’m trying to see, oh my wretched love
And I’m trying to hear all your silent words
And I will go under while you’re here
And need you all the same, my wretched love
And someday I will leave your sphere, my wretched love

I’m a liar and a thief when I hold you in my arms
When I tell you that I’ll stay with you

And I will go on to try in vain
I will go on to try in vain…
I will go on

Time will heal my wretched love and the ways I’m going out
And time will let me down

11.My Wretched – Reprise

I turn away from all the ones who hold on for dear life
Because my fear of love, it rises as a cloudy trace of fiendish sorrow

I single out the ones who’ll never hold me in their hearts
And then I lie under the spell of their resounding glory and raving stories

I’ll seek for all the ones who’ll try to deal with all my faults
And then my need of love will rear its head and drown my spirit, forcing my hand

Time will ease the strain to wander
Time will heal my wretched love
And I will leave the way to wonder why you’re inside me, my wretched love